I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve made a big change I wasn’t ready to share yet. Several months ago I decided I was ready to stop taking my prescribed medications. For the majority of my life I was on some form of anti-anxiety medication or anti-depressant.

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As I’ve expanded my understanding of the brain and myself, I was growing concerned about the side-effects I might be experiencing and not even realizing it. I was choosing to put these chemicals in my body every day and couldn’t prove or disprove their value or what damage they may be causing to my body. Why? Fear. Lack of trust in myself.

My life can be pretty overwhelming sometimes. I’m the divorced, professional mom of a two small children, one with disabilities. I worried if I stopped taking these prescriptions I, all of a sudden, wouldn’t be able to handle all of that.

I had come so far using meditation, yoga and increased self-awareness. I felt confident in the strategies I had implemented to handle adversity and stress. So, I decided to go for it, putting my trust in my self-awareness. If it wasn’t working, I would recognize and adjust. Obviously, I talked it over with my doctor before making any changes.

I am happy to say things have been going great. All of the work I’ve been doing on myself, inside and out, has paid off. Once I started repairing how I felt about myself and taking responsibility for all things in my life, everything started to fall into place. I have a new perspective that has greatly reduced the stress and anxiety I brought on myself.

I’m continuing to learn and evolve. Meditation daily and yoga several days a week help me check in with myself. I use my meditations to work on overcoming fears and walls I’ve put up because of trust issues. I couldn’t be happier with my progress and am so glad I am not dependent on pharmaceuticals to get through my day.