I spend a lot of my evenings on my deck enjoying the sunset. That’s often when I reflect on my day and just let my mind drift. It has been in these moments I realized how content and grateful I am for my life.
This is a far cry from where I was 10, 5 or even 2 years ago. This is more than getting past the days when I was clearly unhappy with my life. At that time, I don’t even know if I knew what contentment was.
To me, being content means I believe that I am exactly where I need to be and have everything I need. There are no if’s or when’s. “If I had more money things would be better.” “When I find the right partner I will be happy.” I’m finally at a point where I feel this way most days.
There are still days I struggle. There are days I catch myself worrying about the future. There are days I catch myself feeling guilty about the past. There are days I catch myself comparing myself to others.
Luckily all of my practice focusing on self awareness has helped me catch these slip ups pretty quickly. As I continue to practice and remind myself I have everything I need, these slip ups will become less frequent. Having the confidence that I will notice and re-focus when I have these moments is a pretty amazing feeling.
A good friend of mine once told me that there was no such thing as happiness. He said that people mistake gratefulness for happiness. I definitely see his point. But I do think you need to couple being content with that. I think you can be grateful for the things you have without being content. To be happy requires both. And at this point in my life, this is where I spend the majority of my time.