Learning to trust myself, like many of the other lessons I have learned, has multiple levels. The first was to let go of past mistakes and learn to trust myself again. But now it’s time to put trust in my strength.
In my 40 years I have taken a lot of risks. Some turned out well, and quite a few did not. But the majority of those risks were unknowingly taken by an unhealthy version of myself.
Now that my mind and body are in a healthier place I more quickly identify these as risks. Recognizing it is a risk and understanding some of the potential consequences makes it that much scarier.
I’ve been pretty content lately. A feeling I hadn’t known before. So, my first instinct when faced with these types of choices has been to take the safe route.
I’m starting to realize though that I need to take these risks. Whether it be with love, work, or lifestyle. This is how I continue to learn and grow. My past has proven I am strong enough to handle whatever the consequences will be. I have to trust I’m stronger than I’ve ever been.
I was talking with a friend the other night about the idea of seizing opportunities when you see them and not hesitating. In order to do this, you have to trust you can handle failing should it happen. While it is a scary idea, all you have to do is look at your past to see you can. So, go for it! If you fail, you learn. It’s still a win!